Friday, September 07, 2007

Over My Head

Have you ever felt like you've jumped into a situation that just totally overwhelmed you and made you feel very inadequate, but at the same time you just knew that it was God's plan, and you felt right in the center of His will? That's how I've felt for the past month.

Since school started, my "To-Do" list hasn't been empty for a second. As I scratch off one task, I replace it with two or three more. And despite as much as I've learned over the past few weeks, there's still so much to learn. I feel like I have special ed and e-Rate in a manageable state for now; today, I'd love to be able to conquer A+, High Schools That Work, and curriculum . . . but if today goes like any other day, I'll just get to scratch the surface on one of them. And at some point, I have an assignment to finish for class tomorrow.

Some updates from my personal life . . . I have started my Specialist classes, and have chosen the integrated Specialist/Ed.D. track, which means by the summer of '09, I'll be starting my dissertation! After waiting on the bank for over five weeks to get nowhere very quickly, we decided to forgo the manufactured home/land option and found an existing house to buy. Just hours before we were to close on the house, the sellers backed out. So now, a little over a month after moving from Fredericktown, we're no closer to having a place of our own than we were when we locked the moving trailer, which is still sitting in the driveway of our old house.

So . . . after following God's lead to take this job and sell the house, I feel like I'm in over my head. That's why I like Brian Littrell's song, "Over My Head," so much. It describes exactly where I am right now:

I tried to figure it out
Time and time again and time again
I guess there's just some things I'll never understand
'Cause Your ways aren't our ways
But deep down in my soul, down in my soul
There is one thing I know that I know

I'm in over my head
Right where I wanna be
I'm so lost within Your love
The love that always covers me
So high, so deep, so wide
A strong and cleansing tide
My soul has found a place to rest
I'm in over my head

...and I wouldn't trade this experience for anything!

1 Comment:

  1. Michael Goldsmith said...
    Hey Joe!!

    It's nice to hear some thoughts from you. I didn't know if you were surviving the administrative path or not! :)

    Keep on keeping on...I'll be praying for you!

    Goldie

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